Have I ever told you that I am person with high anxiety. I worry about things all the time. I worry about dumb things, things that may not happen, things that will work themselves out in time and things that are way beyond my control. I have always been this way....a worrier.
Sometimes I feel so blessed, I truly have a great life. There is a roof over my head, my kids go to bed with full bellys and I am married to the most wonderful man. My life is too good, when will the bad luck hit? This is the kind of thing I worry about.
My husband loves his job and it provides better than a great life for us. My kids are happy and healthy and I got to spend every minute with them. My days this summer have been spent hanging out by Mimi's pool surrounded by friends and family and doing lunch and playdates with friends. What is not to love about this life?
But at night when I lay my head down I am ever thankful for it and then I worry that in one instant it could all slip away. My karma is bound to run out. I know this degree of worry is not normal. I also know it comes and goes. A family here in the town I live is going through a really dark time. A father and husband is losing his life to cancer and it is so sad. I know this situation is the cause for my latest anxiety, but it scares me. I don't want to take this life for granted, but I don't want to lose it either.
If you pray please say some prayers for this family.