I've been avoiding you, yes I have in a bad way. Trust me it's not you, so don't take it personal, it's me, all me. You know when you have that project, or test to study for, or appointment and you really just really can't even think about it. You avoid the topic or subject or in my case blogger at all cost. I haven't even been reading blogs until tonight. It's sad and true. I have no idea why. I've actually gotten anxious and nauseous thinking about how I haven't blogged or documented milestones or told any of the cute antidotes that have happened here in the past few weeks. And that my friends was a clear sign that it was time to step away from the computer.
These past few days I've been feeling down and like crap. Not depressed and no I don't need medication (not that there is anything wrong with that, I just haven't needed it). No, just typical off days. Days were I can't get my shit together or anyone else's. This week alone, I lost my keys at the movies, my ipod, my 23 month old --- oh I kid the ipod is not really missing! But you know the days or weeks when we just can't get it together, we all have them.
I feel like my life is constant choas and I'm always exhausted and just can't get it straight. I'm treading water as fast as I can and I am barely staying afloat. In fact several times this week I have been late (GASP!) Me, the one always early was late, more than once.
So this weekend my husband is whisking me away to a romantic weekend on Mobile Bay. Be jealous, it's the first time we have gone away for a weekend together since Meredith was born. I know far too long since the last time.
I am hoping I will have time to regroup, relax and then be back, back to my old self. Handling the daily chaos and easily staying afloat.
I promise not to avoid you when I return.