Tuesday, March 4, 2008

half assed

That is how I feel today. My kids are not sleeping, my house is a mess, my head is pounding.....Ever have a day where you just do not feel like doing anything. In fact it is a struggle to get up in the morning. A day where you just want to lay around and watch the mess around you multiply, yep it is one of those days.

I imagine when I had these days and I was working full time, pre tikes, I just went in and did what I had to do to get by and done with my day. I imagine I did therapy with the kids and made sure they worked on something remotely close to their speech goals, but it was not the best I could do. Yeah I remember having a few of those days. And there were even some days I called in sick....a mental health day. Then some days I was on top of my game and squeezed in language and articulation exercises every second they were in the room with me. On those days I was a top notch therapist.

Well at home things are different, there are no sicks days, no mental health days, no one cares if I do the job at all, much less how well I do it. I am my own boss. I guess my husband may care, but since I am the CEO of this household and he is only the VP my business decisions trump his. Seriously I can lay around and do nothing and I will not get fired. I mean I do have to change diapers and feed kids and make sure they do not harm themselves or one another. But I do not have to be the world's greatest mom today. I can let her watch a little too much Elmo or let him swing in the swing a little too long (as long as he is content) and I can do an easy lunch and snack compared to a more healthy one that requires a little more out of me.

I can let the laundry pile up and the dishes in the sink. I can pretend not to see the mess that I have walked over all day and I can ignore the clothes that are falling off of dressers and need desperately to be put away. Yeah I can do all those things, only thing is it will all be here for me tomorrow. So blog, I am leaving now to get to work. I have a lot to do and really I want to play with my kids.....the laundry and dishes may wait....right now Meredith asked to "nuggle". Productivity after all!


Josh said...

Hey love,

Relax and enjoy the kids, as best you can. I will try my best to pick up tonight and let you get some rest early. Love you!! I would never fire you but only see if the CEO would consider giving you a raise for all you do. Josh

Blair said...

Oh your hubby needs to talk to my hubby! I am all about a raise. But considering I get paid in hugs and kisses, $10 a month would be an improvement!
I feel you though. My house is a constant mess. I pick up this section, Charlotte messes up that section. Diaper change here, wipe a nose there. And don't even get me started on the laudry. Min of 4 loads two times a week. How is it possible that our little family of 4 produces 8 loads of laundry in a week!?

Jaimie said...

Get your head up. We all have those days. To be honest I have those days more than not! You house is just too damn big to take care of. That's your prob! :-)