A much needed break

On Thursday after our Thanksgiving lunch with family all of the ladies in my family packed our stuff into the car and headed to the beach. We met up with several other women in the family and caravaned to Destin, Florida. We stayed for two nights in a condo and had a blast. We shopped and ate and laughed and reminisced. It was so much fun. This was the first trip I took without my children, it was long overdue. I will not lie I missed Meredith's smile and constant gibber jabber, I missed Noah's cuddles and silly grin. I missed the tons of hugs and kisses and love yous that they were at home giving their dad, but I really enjoyed my girls weekend.

When I got home I was greeted with a huge hug from Meredith and she didn't want me to put her down for about 20 minutes. When Noah awoke I got him out of his crib and he hugged me so tight and just held onto me with a firm grasp not wanting me to let him go. It felt awesome to be missed.

I also missed my husband so much and he also greeted me with a big hug and kiss along with folded laundry, a clean house, a clean kitchen, dinner on the stove, no dishes in the sink, and two kids who had been well taken care of.

I know why I love this man and married this man and then he does stuff like this and makes me fall in love with him all over again. Thanks Josh for taking care of the kids and the house and giving me a weekend away...I love you.

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving everyone. Today I am so thankful for my family. I could not have been blessed with a more wonderful husband or two more fabulous tikes! Yes, I have a lot to be thankful for.

Enjoy your turkey day and when I return from my girl's weekend, I will be back to blogging. My first weekend with no children, I know I should be thankful my husband has pushed me to go on this trip and volunteered to do the solo parenting, but I'm nervous to leave them and afraid of how much I will miss them.

So I will see you all Saturday!

Taking turns

Yes, the last two days have been all about taking turns. It has been a long time coming and long over due, but we did it. And no taking turns has nothing to do with the kids. Josh and I took turns the past two days spending the whole day with friends without one another and without kids doing things we enjoy. I went shopping....I know....get a hobby. Josh went tailgating and to Monday night football to see dem Saints!

I think we may do this more often, maybe even together....look at us getting wild and crazy!

Note to self

Dear Self,

Please make sure the baby monitor is turned off before you go into your children's rooms and vent to your husband about your in laws who are in earshot of the receiver. Or don't and perhaps they won't visit anymore.


xo,
your self

What she says.....over-worked and under-paid

"Momma what you doing?"

"I am getting the Kentwood bottles to put outside so we can get some water"

"Oh.........Momma I help you" trying to pick one of the 5 gallon jugs up

"Momma, I can't do it....its heavy"

"Bug Mommy will get it"

"No momma....I do it....I do it"

"Okay, carry it to front door"

"Hi Ho, Hi Ho its off to work I go.....HI Ho, Hi Ho, Hi Ho......off to work I go" and she sang this the entire walk from the garage to the front porch while toting the empty jug

"Bug where did you learn that song?" trying to recall if she ever saw that movie, which she didn't

"See momma I do it.....I CAN do it!"

"Bug who taught you the Hi Ho song?"

"I no know momma....I did it!"

Noah's present

Josh and I ordered Noah a rocking chair from this shop on Etsy, for his birthday. I cannot say enough good things about this etsy shop and the quality of the chair. If you look closely you can see his name on the chair. I love it and if you are thinking of getting your little one a rocking chair too, consider getting one here. The chair is a great quality chair and the shop has wonderful customer service. Plus I believe in supporting small businesses!

Thanksgiving Feast at school

Here is the home-made Indian costume.....thanks Julia for all your help! Meredith would have gone as a bag lady without your help!

My cowboy and my Indian! See the cowboy shirt...real clever I know.

This Indian is sick of taking pictures and wants to go to school to the party! Suck it up Meredith, this is my first school party too and I want pictures. Also notice the cute little Indian purse I made.....move over Martha!I talked her into one more before we went in. A classroom full of Indians.....waiting for the party. Yes, there are a ton of pictures bare with me, it was very exciting and I couldn't contain myself!So tired from a full day of playing....and soooo hungry.

All the little Indians enjoying a Thanksgiving feast. They were all so quiet because they skipped their snack time so they were starving!

The cutest little Indian girl....of course I am biased.

Aren't they so cute!

Telling her dad to step away....don't embarrass me dad!

Chowing down.

I love this picture, I love how it shows how happy she is at her school. I love her school and what it has done for her.

Notice my little Indian cleaned her entire plate and yes, she asked for more. There were chicken nuggets, Cheetos, fruit and a cookie she is finishing. She asked for more fruit and nuggets, she really didn't want the cookie....I have to say I am proud.

Notice the clean plate and the little stuffed Indian.

Meredith and Mrs. Jenny with her little friend Ella!

The Birthday Part 2

The night of your birthday I made you your favorite dinner and we had Mimi and Poppa over to celebrate. We started by opening presents, because cake was after dinner and I was pretty sure after cake, you would go straight to a bath and I was right.

Wow, presents too! I love birthdays! You are sitting in your rocking chair that Daddy and I got for you. You love it, in the morning you crawl right over to it and climb in. You also push it against the coffee table to use it as a latter to crawl onto the coffee table. My little boy!

Awe Sweet sister, biting your head off! Overall she handled your birthday better than I thought she would.

Ummm my new truck from Mimi or my rocker from Mom and Dad...tough decisions!

I love my new truck!

Happy Birthday to you! We would not have a repeat episode of this morning, you were determined to taste some before we sang!
Really freaked out by the fire.

More freaked out by the candle itself.

Cake....finally cake....we are starting to get the drift....cake first then singing.

You literally dove right in! Good thing you had your fork!

Making sure you get every last drop of sugar off before you grabbed more cake!

You were getting serious, the fork had to go....double fisting!

Now this is more like it....happy birthday Noah!

Loving your birthday cake!

You ate the entire piece, I kid you not! And when we took it away you cleaned the fork too!

Happy Birthday Noah man....your party is Saturday....know what that means....MORE CAKE!

The Birthday

I am truly a fan of the birthday week, hell I even believe in the birthday month, but I won't push it. Anyway I think the whole week should be special and it is. So Noah, enjoy your birthday week. Yesterday morning on his actualy birthday we had his Mommy and Me party. We all went to celebrate including Meredith, Mimi and Daddy.



Here is how I brought my children to Mommy and Me, nice and clean!A rare moment, Meredith helping Noah with a bottle. Awe!

Singing Happy Birthday, Noah you really didn't enjoy the song too much, you just wanted the darn cake. Really wanted it...

You are so heartbroken that you just can't eat it.....Why are you people singing....just let me eat my cake!!!!

Right here you aren't heart broken, you are just pissed off. LET ME EAT CAKE DAMMIT!

This is why you love Mimi best, she just let you eat cake and get her all dirty. Look how exhausted you are from all that screaming!Now you are much happier!Even your buddy Burke was there to celebrate....Isn't my godchild very cute!
This is all the others babies in mommy and me. Or you and Burkes women....you two were the only boys that day!

Much happier now that Daddy is here and your belly is full of cake. I have to say Sorry to my lovely husband again. He stayed up late baking the cupcakes for the party today and I didn't even wait for him to sing. My two year old was being a real pill because she didn't want to wait to eat cake she WANTED IT RIGHT NOW DAMMIT! And well Noah had missed his morning nap and snack and things were headed south and quick. Sorry sweetheart, but thanks for taking the time to come...I really appreciate it and I am sure Noah will one day too!Daddy's little man

To my little one on his birthday

Dear Noah,

Today you are a year old, it’s hard to believe I know. Last night as I was thinking about your birthday I thought about all the things I worried about before you arrived. Like if I would love you as much as I love your big sister? If I could be a good mom to both of you? How would I find time to feed and dress and carve out time individually for you both? Today looking back on those thoughts I realize how very serious they were and how silly they are.

I love you just as much as I love your sister, but in a completely different way. I love you because you are you. A friend once told me not to worry, that there doesn’t have to be enough room in my heart to love you both, because when you were born I would grow a whole new heart and love you just as much, with my entire heart. She was right, I grew a second heart on November 19, 2007.

I’ve also learned to become a completely different mother with you. While Meredith may have been my first and the one I tried the hardest to get things right with. You were the one I feel like I got it right with. And no not everything I have done with you is right, but at the same time I don’t fear that it is so wrong either. I am a more relaxed mom with you and I think you are a better child for it. You have taught me to use my instincts more and learn from you and take cues from you and not books. You have showed me how to be a mom and how to be a mom of 2 tikes under 2. You were my inspiration for this blog.

A year ago today, I was in a recovery room begging your dad not make me have the dreaded c-section. Yes, you were a section baby, we can thank your sister for that one. I was begging and pleading for him to talk to the doctor about a VBAC or at least just let me go home. His answer was calm and rational and reassuring, we ( you and I) would be fine. And we were.

I remember when they pulled you out, you didn’t scream immediately and I worried, gosh did I worry. In the 3.2 seconds it took you to scream, my world stopped and it all came to a crashing halt. I needed you to scream and you did and then the world was right. I was so happy you were here, so happy you were safe, so thankful and so very blessed. Not very long after you were born, they whisked you away to the nursery with your dad. I was so jealous that your dad got to leave with you and be with you and to show you off, after all I was the one that carried you around for 9 months, I wanted to be the one to go with you. I didn’t want you very far away from me at all.

It seemed like forever before I got to hold you. Back in the recovery room I was very agitated it took them so long to bring you to me. I told your dad to go and get you and I didn’t care what they said, just bring you to me. Please understand I was pretty heavily medicated and what seemed like hours were actually only minutes. I missed you. The nurse finally brought you around and I got to hold you for the first time. You were so sweet and I was instantly in love, head over heels. In that instant I knew that the c-section and the worry that went with it was all worth it.

You were a piece of work though, when you were born you were just as active outside the womb as you were inside and that activity has never stopped. At night when I was pregnant I would feel you kick all through the night and you would actually wake me up out of deep sleeps. The first several weeks of your life you were the same way, I wasn‘t sure I would make it. On the night you were born, you were in your hospital bassinet asleep and your dad and I tried to get some sleep to and in the next instant you were screaming you little head off. Your dad held you the whole night pacing the room. When I asked him why he didn’t at least sit down and rock you he said he was afraid he would fall asleep and drop you if he sat down. You had us wrapped around your finger from day one and still do.

Your activity has not decreased at all, but you are sleeping through the night so I guess we‘ll keep you. You are always in motion and always smiling. You have such a great disposition I hope it stays with you forever.

Noah it seems like just yesterday you joined our family, but at the same time it feels like you have been a part of it forever. Happy birthday little man, I love you so much.

Love,
Mom

In denial

I am in full denial that tomorrow my baby, my newborn, the one I was just pregnant with will be one! Yes he will have been here a full year tomorrow and I am in denial. Where has the time gone? I can still remember what it felt like to be pregnant with him, has it really been a year? Was I asleep for most of the last year? Oh yeah, I was just in that new mommy fog. However my fog was pretty heavy because I had not one, but two babies when I brought him home. Yes as much as I thought, my first baby was a big girl, she was just a baby. Two babies, no wonder this year has flown, how did I manage, how did I get by, how am I still getting by? While things have gotten easier and I can manage to get a shower before noon, I will say being the mom of two is not always a walk in the park. However it is easier now. And it is the most awesome thing in the world. Noah you are my biggest crush, my absolute sweetheart, my momma's boy. You have taught me how to grow a whole new heart and love someone with all of it. I love you little man!

Walking down memory lane....