Being a mom is one of the hardest jobs I have ever had. I am making decisions that are shaping someone else's life. I am helping to mold these little people to hopefully become responsible adults. I am trying to instill good values and morals without coming off as a nag. I am making decisions that other people do not agree with and are happy to make known. Does that make the job easier....no, it just makes an already tough job that much tougher.
Yes it is the job I signed up for. It just never occured to me the impact it would have on my own life. How much I would change to better myself for these little people that now fill up my life. How my eating habits, sleeping habits and laziness would change to be a better role model. How drastically my vocabulary would change. How I would have to take stands to do what I think is right for my own children, even if it goes against others wishes.
I am doing the best I can with what I have. I am trying my hardest to be the responsible person who holds them accountable, but still lets them slide. To make them realize wrong from right, and that slipping up is okay when you know that you can get back on the wagon. To make them realize that life is hard and it is unfair, but everyone now and then it is easy too. To never give in, but then splurge occasionally.
I am using some of the things my parents taught me and vowing to also never do some of the things my parents did too. I am taking some of my traditions from my own childhood and making up some of my own. I am trying to be me, it is hard to help them grow up, when I still have so much growing up to do myself.
No being a parent is not easy, but it is the best job in the world.